here & there

A few days ago..
It has been a while since my last update. Everything is developing so quickly. I am trying my best to catch up. I always say to my self that I am going to calm down, look a round me, re-evaluate where I have been & where I am now. However, it doesn't work. Every time I say to myself I am going to take leave to relax I discover that I drag myself into other issues. I am here next to the pool with the moon on top of my head. I have just finished my gym session & trying to take my breath back. Nothing is disturbing the silence except the aircrafts on final approach of DXB airport.

Where I have been and where am I now? This question is spinning in my head. Why did I change my major? Why I am away from my family? Is life is fair? Am I fair to myself? I truly got no answer. Why do I keep this useless website? When started this website long time ago it was so much different than now. My hobbies, my joy and my mentality had been change. Even my personality and attitude have been changed. The close loop of my friends, my colleagues, and my social life has been changed too. I feel disconnected. On a long term basis it’s going to affect me. Whenever my days off come up, I try to spend it with my family. I am so unfair with my friends. The traffic in Dubai, I hate it. I still can't co op with it. It is affecting me now.

I feel lonely.
I feel down.
I feel stressed.
I feel fatigued.

It’s all what I feel now. I need a break from everything. It’s not the right time. I am about to start a new course a challenging one. I will fly new aircraft & to change my life style. I don't know if I am on the right track of my career. I just want to keep writing. There a lot to say, things to unveil, points to discuss. I never been a good writer but I know how to express myself.

I am good in making friend but a big loser in keeping them. I am going to stand on my feet again. Days are passing, months and years too. I hope I won't regret it. I can see my life passing and things are getting more complicated. At the end of the tunnel there most be a bright light I am sure. That's what's still keeping me up.

Today..
I woke up in the morning on an uncomfortable cheap bed. I got a backache. There was a piece of paper slide under my door. First thing came to my mind “dammit, this is the bad news coming” it was stating that the departing flight which we will take home is cancelled and we are going to stay for one more day. It’s so cold here. Anyway, I went for a walk in the morning. I had my breakfast in one of the café. WH Smith is my favourite for magazine. I try my bed to get at least one London flight for two reasons: to meet a friends and to buy magazines *LOL*. Later on I spent an hour or so in the gym. The crew are so boring. I have no idea what do they do in their room. The fog in Dubai is nasty. The last thing you need to do when you are coming from somewhere far is to divert to another place. Its dinner time here I believe so I better go and eat something. I believe I am going to end up sitting with one of the American airlines crew. They are all above 50s. *LOL*.

This was sent to my by one of my mates, Etihad Airline. It really hurts!!

11.17.07 @ 11:26 PM UAE 5 Comments